Originally Posted by
mellieJan2010 
I had wine tonight. I was doing so well, and then bam. I think I knew it was going to happen. All of the meetings I have been to... everyone said how they went "back out" two or three times, or more, before it stuck. I think this gave me a get out of jail free card. I actually knew it a week or so ago that it would happen even though I was loving being sober, how sad is that. The thing that was interesting is that first sip did not feel like it did before and neither were the other 40 sips. No rush, no calm, just mechanically drinking a glass of wine. Interesting to say the least.
So...
Doesn't feel like it did before because you've got a head full of AA, and a belly full of wine. It'll be a tough spot to be in, but you'll get back on the path when you're ready. I was there for a few months -- going to meetings, reading the big book, while drinking. Hell of a spot. Eventually I had enough, after I paid a few more consequences.
I wish you the best, though!