Originally Posted by spryte
I am THIS close to drinking again - What should I do?
Get recovered. I know it sounds trite, but it's the only answer I found. Find someone who talks about having a spiritual awakening as being the only hope for a doomed alcoholic. Have them show you how to have your own spiritual awakening as the result of taking the 12 Steps. And be recovered. All the meetings in the world won't get you to this state.