I was looking for an edit button so as not to bump my own post, but I didn't find it (not saying there isn't one, probably right in front of my face). AA tonight was good. There were a few things, like the prayer, and another daily reading that seemed to be pinpointing exactly what is going on in my life right now, as well as some people (it was open discussion night, after birthdays) saying things that struck home, about negatives becoming positives, about bad things, suffering etc, being able to help our growth tremendously, even a guy I hadn't seen before talking about how the first time he felt hope in a long long time was when he went to inpatient treatment..while facing bad charges.
I talked to him after the meeting and told him how, though I think it's a little strange, I know exactly how he felt, because I feel hope right now, and I used to avoid hope as much as possible. Turns out he is now 22 years sober. I love living proof that it -can- be done.