Originally Posted by
Aysha 
Yea..But she says being that raw helps her stay clean. Because it remonds her how bad she was.
But....I know when I talk like that, I am just running my mouth. Mostly to try and one up someone or prove I was a bad ass. Or trying to get the shock value from people.
....
Not for the right reaosns.
Hearing and talking about those things doesnt keep me clean. It makes me almost glorify it. And it doesnt take a genius to know that nothing about addiction is glorious.
Recovery is glorious, often in a very quiet way, but glorious nonetheless. I've seen people hold onto the war stories. Hell, I did it myself early on. Until there's something tangible -- not necessarily material, but real in a more real sense than a car or a nice apartment -- that we can talk about in recovery, the stories are often all we think we have.
Keep looking and praying for a sponsor, and someone who's right for you will come along.
Peace & Love,
Sugah