Hi Coffedrinker, your reply made me cry cos that's how it feels, like I woke up one morning and he was gone, never got to really speak to him, and he wouldn't speak to me afterwards, and I still haven't spoke to him.
I have a beautiful grand-daughter who's 4yrs who stays with few days a week, and we play and potter about the garden etc. I have just been on a holiday with my sister & dad for 10 days in the sun all of which does help but underneath Im extremely sad.
I want so very much to feel (normal) again, and laugh properly etc.
Thank you though for your reply it was very kind.