My 2cents' worth:
You are 36 and in a marriage to somebody who is an active alcoholic.
You want children.
He would rather drink than have kids with you.
Do you choose not having children because you would rather live with an active alcoholic?
If, in 10 years - when you are 46, he is no longer interesting, funny or kind, just angry and depressed and drunk, are you going to be glad you made this decision?
Not everyone wants children. Can you imagine a life without kids?
Why don't you take the dream job and spend the summer thinking it over?
You have been given a great gift. The gift of time and distance, without having to make your big decisions right now.
What do you think?