Hi lost,
I am so familiar with those emotions you are describing it's uncanny. Do you think it's possible that you could have been abusing alcohol to mask the symptoms of bipolar disorder. I was.
Also, 30 days is long time! I've only been totally sober for 18 hrs. But you were STRONG enough and BRAVE enough not to let those horrible feelings make you run back inside a bottle.
I'd say your doing very well and as far as the mood swings and depression, finding a qualified doctor you can be honest with would be a good idea. There are alot of new medications and therapies for bipolar disorder and depression. And of course, keep coming here