First off huggs to you for staying 30 days sober! What is going on? Please share with us what you feel when you have these moments. Let it out my friend. I know the road of sobriety can be emotionally draining. As much as I hate booze, I also feel a scared without it....as I am seeing the world without those drunken rose colored glasses and I am nervous but I am stronger than this....that is what I tell myself.
Vent....let it out
God Bless