Gracey

My A Husband will be sober for 60 days on the 17th of June, I am very excited and happy for him..........Sober or not Sober my husband is a complete ******* when it comes to certain issues......I am realizing that his opinions are not always wrong, I am realizing when it comes to my oldest daughter I automatically get very defensive.....It is almost like I go deaf as to anything she might do wrong, in his eyes........Even though he has very valid points. I always make excuses for her, (she may not have a job, but she goes to school all day and that is her job right now) I never make her do anything aroung the house.........I think I have gotten worse.........I think I try to make up for how critical my H is........I feel like I am teaching my children that it is okay to walk all over me to.........I try to make my kids happy and I always had a theory if there isnt a good reason to say no, then why should i say no..........(I think sometimes I just dont feel like it) should be okay........Yesterday my daughter wanted me to pick her up some job applications.....well I told her that I would and I asked her very nicely if she would do something for me....she said with an attitude what...(teenager) I asked her to please make sure the kitchen was clean and she said okay......she called me a little while later to remind me of picking the applications up.......so I asked her did you clean the kitchen up.......she says to me well I cleaned the floor but not under the table......My kitchen is so small you wouldnt believe it.......there is hardly any floor to clean at all.....So i told her since she was giving me half of what I wanted, I will pick up the applications and rip them in half and give half to her..........she doesnt like the new me...........of course she did what i asked, so I did what she asked of me......I told her it goes both ways and that is one way I was taking care of myself yesterday........My husband was in a bad mood yesterday due to the storm we had, it knocked the neighbors tree down and into my yard and it took down three power lines..........he started bitching.......I just walked away.......when he bitches i take it personally, and i dont have the patience to hear him..........It usually eventually ticks me off, and then I start......I was just thinking to myself quack, quack, quack.........It really worked and then I just started to laugh at him, and that was getting me in trouble....I just told him I am sorry honey I was just thinking about something I read at work.............lol, it kinda fumbled him and he lost track of thought and then I walked away with a smile on my face toooooooo.......

please let me know if I am being warped, I am fully not convinced yet.........I think I am, and then I still question my every thought.......