Yes, you are all right. I made it through the evening without drinking. It was a pretty hard at first and then it got easier. I don't come from a family of alcoholics but rather either social or non-drinkers. The reason I can't drink at all is that I went from being a 2-3 drink social drinker to an every day 2-3 drink drinker to drinking more and more every day. Thankfully, I have never blacked out or suffered major consequences or humiliations as a result of my drinking. I would love to keep it that way. My drinking was escalating with no clear limits in sight. I don't want a drink on a night like this, I want five or six. I would like for the obsession to be removed. I hope that working the 12 steps will help that happen. The main reason I did not drink tonight is because I simply could not face going to a meeting tomorrow morning after a slip. Whatever gets you through I guess...
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