Thank you, so much, everyone, for the wonderful advice. It's really enlightened me and feel free to send more. LOL.
I know it would be extremely difficult to tell the whole truth if I relapsed. I would feel so ashamed. I'll have to KEEP THAT in the front of my mind to encourage me to continue to stay away from that junk.
And thank you, everyone, for the congrats. I do feel really proud (ego head, LOL) staying clean for so long. I thought I'd never get off that junk!