It could have been me writing your post; I stuck around for 9 years, 7 of them I was in active alcoholism myself. When I started my recovery I stayed with XABF for over two years more until I couldn't stand the emotional pain anymore. We split up a year and a half ago, he has a new gf and still drinks and probably uses drugs again now too, while I have been putting the pieces of ME back together. At least by ending things with him, I found out what meant the most and it was the booze. SO glad I didn't waste anymore of my time on him, the relationship was destroying me. Hugs and prayers to you.