Thank you everyone for giving me some inspiring words. Today is the first day that I have NO pills, and I am not going to get any. Yesterday was the last day that I am going to use. I honestly really just have to stop!!! It is costing me tons of money to support my habit, and my kids do not deserve to have a mother that takes pills. I function fine when I am taking them...but really want to quit. I have done the work to taper myself down, so now it is time to just give them up all together. Lets see how I feel tomorrow.