I have to say I am very grateful for all your messages.
I woke up today and felt like death, not so much from withdrawals (I am still drinking, bit now am trying to taper off), but just the post booze depression and the fact that, once again, I had to wake up to an unhappy life.
What I want to know is that if I do not succeed, is it possible to go to AA while still drinking and then try to stop while attending?