(((Live))))
Annie, when I moved up here only 5 short months ago, i was still picturing all manner of horrible things happening to "the baby". Then someone suggested I try praying, and every day on my way to work I would ask God to please, please help me stop obsessing that my daughter was going to die.
Its gone. For the first time since she was born, I don't play out the scene endlessly in my mind. I know it was my way of trying to be "prepared for the worse", but when john died I learned the very valuable lesson that it doesnt matter how prepared you think you are, death hurts, bad. So even though I learned that lesson then, it took another 10 years for me to learn the way to let go.
I am SO grateful not to be in that turmoil anymore, and all of the thanks go to my HP, and you wonderful people here on SR who constantly teach me the ways of the spirit.