Originally Posted by
Untoxicated 
I'm so there with you. For the longest time I wanted it because I couldn't have it. But then when I allowed myself to have it, it wasn't special because I didn't have any restrictions.
Clearly something is wrong but I don't have the answer and I'm not sure how to get it.
Yeh I think thats why some alcohol support services/programmes do not advocate or insist on abstainence. Making drink forbidden fruit some would argue is not productive. Many are working on behaviourist principles that if you identify triggers and change associations or outcomes then ,you can change behaviour, they do not see it as an illness or disease to which you are powerless.
Suppose it doesn't matter the "diagnosis" or label BUT what ever gets the results you need that matters. There are people who can manage and control their drinking after years of alcohol abuse. I am still deciding if I am one of them