J,
You are not alone in your feelings. Somedays we can still feel lonely in a crowded room. That's just part of being human, addict or alcoholic aside, we are still human beings. Coming to terms with our humaness helps us in these times. We are not the animals or alien beings we sometimes felt we were when we were using. Today I am grateful to know that I am just a human who has the disease of addiction. That releases me from having to be perfect.
Love ya
Laurie D