Hi and welcome. I'm sure most of us said we couldn't do the 12 Step programme because we were not religious but it is not about religion.
The wording of the programme and the Big Book hasn't changed since the 1930s. I am sure if you watched a movie from that time you would find it difficult to relate to, wouldn't you?
Don't you think that if your life depends on it you can just simply keep an open mind?
Ask yourself this question. Am I the greatest power there is in this universe?
If you answer yes, then AA/CA/NA are not going to work for you.
But if you can answer no, even if the only power greater than you than you that you can see is the sun - always constant, light giving, heat giving, life giving, .....then get yourself to a meeting straight away. That's all we mean by god - a power greater than yourself. Nothing more.
Go to a meeting,
keep an open mind,
look for similarities rather than differences when you hear people talk,
when you hear "God" think about whatever power you see greater than yourself,
ask someone who has the recovery you want, to show you how to get better.
Just do it and don't let your cunning, addictive mind talk you in to keeping a closed mind so that you can continue to use and stay in your addictive hell.
Take care of yourself.