Hi Shifty! Another Aussie, how lovely.
I had all those same thoughts when I was first recovering. I fantasized about having 'just a few' (like the normies can). It was Dee's advice about playing the tape through that stopped me dead in my tracks. What would really happen if I had that first drink? I'd be on another binge, another trip to hell. Where would this one end? I had already proven to myself that I couldn't possibly predict what would happen once I picked up.
I'm so glad you didn't give in and made it through. I drank for over 25 yrs. and I can promise you YES you will become less obsessed with drinking thoughts and cravings. It takes awhile, but getting wasted will become less and less appealing as you heal.
Congratulations on your decision to seek a new life for yourself.