hi j,
i think sometimes us addicts and alcos forget that we are not the only ones in the world with problems. like we are the ONLY ones who have monkeys on our backs or incredible sorrows to deal with. there are just as many miserable sick "normies" as there are addicts and alcos. so when we get to thinking we are the only ones with problems we start justifying how we deserve to be happy all the time and of course, abstainance will give us that, right? wrong ... all that does is prolong our lives a little longer and give us a little clarity.
imo, if you are expecting to one day wake up and not desire a drink or be painfree that is unrealistic. its my understanding that the AA program teaches people how to deal with the crap and corruption that comes our way. its also not a guaranteed filter right? i dont think the unfulfilled need in your heart will disappear overnight, or even on your timeframe ... i just hope you're able to stick it out with the rest of us!
best wishes and congrats on your almost 2 years!
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