since stumbling (almost literally) onto this site and making the decision to turn my life around (only sober for two days now) I feel like I have become obsessed with this site.
As I sat here reading this or that, I finally realized a few emotions were happening.
One of those was that reading about drinking made me want a drink. All the talk about never again or just one more time or here I go again, started to make the cravings strong midday today. The thoughts of "never again" really hit hard.
This evening I also realized that this is almost my way of still be connected to alcohol. If I can not drink it I can at least "read" about it. I know this may sound strange, but these just some thoughts that I have going through my mind as I begin recovery.
Has anyone else gone through these experiences during their initial process of breaking the curse of addiction? I hope that going back to work tomorrow will help keep my mind off of my "frienemy" named alcohol.
Two days and counting
