Lately I have been utterly detached and happy with no repercussions. That's why I said this isn't the right forum because it's not codependance, but a PTSD trigger, which is a brutal ugly thing.
However, I will stay out of his store, go NC with him for awhile to recover, all though lately he is very helpful and supportive when this happens. This last happened mid-November and he spent hours on the phone with me trying to help. He wasn't able to at the time because I was so deep in the trigger-actually vomited that day--but I did learn later that what he was telling me what the truth.
Whatever. I'm starting to feel beter but oh that stinks. just need to refocus on my life. Thank goodness I still have some of this medication to cap it off.