hmmm, new years eve 1999 I was in the pit of despair, my John had just died and I wanted to go with him.
new years eve last year I was engulfed in shame, I had just "hit my bottom"
I did some pretty tremendous things in between, some pretty horrendous things as well. I wasn't consciously trying for either I don't think, I was just being thrown around by the currents of my life.
This past year has seen me, maybe for the first time in my adult life, take an active roll in deciding what I am doing with my life, and I like it.
So for the next decade (wow that seems big), I will work to do the right thing as often as I possibly can to the best of my ability.
I will work to learn how to help people, in a non-codependent way, and see and accept the times I can't do much at all.
I will work to forgive myself, and to forgive others, and to make things right where I can.
I will embrace every drop of joy that comes my way.
I will work to maintain progress and balance, continuing to work on my spiritual, emotional and physical well being.
I will work to attract healthy relationships with healthy people.
Thats a lot of work, I better get busy!