Neo...I can identify with the feelings you are having even though I am 20 years your senior. What I will say to you is time will eventually change this. My first holiday season was incredibly boring. I did exactly what I was suppose to do...I didn't drink and I stayed away from those that did. The season passed without incident and from my perspective without fun. This holiday season...my third...I forced myself to participate in some of the festivities that I had previously avoided and to my surprise I had a blast. Sure people were drinking...some even got drunk. My point is that time gives us the perspective we need to see things the way they really are. Laughter can come without booze or at least without me ingesting it! lol Remain strong and steadfast knowing that the future and your life will change...things will not always be as they are today.