I know how you feel too. Its like I am just not content with just being normal or something. I dont have too long clean either. But I have had a few months before. It def does get better. I agree with everyone above. You have to do alot more than just set the drink down. IMO thats the easy part. Its what you do from there on out.
Try and find some sober networks f2f. Any ones you may be interested in.
Hang in there. It will get better. But it doesnt happen on its own.