I could have started this thread. Was a daily closet drinker for 30 years. No one except my husband knew what a drunk I was.
Also, like you...didn't know how I could get through the holidays (or anything, for that matter) sober.
I've been sober for 1 1/2 years. Simply can NOT believe the things I can do now! I can drive after 5:00! I don't call people and wonder what in the hell I said. No more hang overs. But most of all, I'm finally proud of myself.
Still have a lot of work to do, but I am so much happier....and never thought I would/could say that.
Welcome to SR!