hi LKKPA
yeah that was me too - I figured out all I was doing was just not drinking, and that just didn't cut for it for me. I had to make some real changes - some of those changes included friends, other changes included lifestyle, I had to look deep within myself and try and figure out why I was trying to do with my drinking.
It's hard to evaluate your existence and rebuild your life from the ground up. Thats why many people here use face to face support like AA or another recovery programme.
Stick around - real post - find something or someone who makes sense to you, and look into what they do.
I used to drink all day every day. The last 3 sober years have been the best of my life
SR helped me get there- hope we can help you too LKKPA
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