The guilt that followed at the end of the day with nothing done also became the norm.
While alcohol isn't my problem, pain pills are, I can relate to this. I was taking them to get through the day but then that turned into taking them so I would feel okay about getting nothing accomplished. You sound like you are on your way to an improved you. I hope the Antabuse works well for you. Im not too familiar with it, but Im sure others may be.