Anyone Else Have A Complex Problem?
Yeah my Complex problem right now is my insecurity, feeling like I don't belong where I go. I believe these thoughts are very true.
I've been around SR now for many years, yet today, I feel as a outcast and it isn't anything to do with SR! It happens wherever I am. So this is a feeling that keeps me very insecure, unstable, emotional wreck, etc.
I might be sober yes...But these thoughts that I have are very fearful and very frightening. They almost make me want to just die. Something I used to think about using has now turned into all the time thinking.
I believe in my heart that my last relapse has really messed up my mind. I fear this with all of my heart. I pray everyday...I read and write everyday, I go to meetings everyday, I contact another alke, addict, codie, etc everyday. I try to live by the principles in which we are directed in...but no matter what I have done, these feelings and insecurity don't leave. It scares me to think that my thoughts are reality...
Anyone else have issues like this in early recovery?