I am so glad you joined us.
I understand your comment about keeping these together and how hard it is to do that. At the end of my drinking, I was absolutely exhausted in every sense of the word. The hiding, the lying, the covering up had taken away my life. I came so very close to losing my family. I did lose what self-respect I had left and caused health problems for myself. I hope you can find inspiration on these boards. I know I do.