Thank you again for all the support. I really need it so badly. I act as if I am fine and independent alone, even if I am dying inside.
I did go to a 6:00PM AA meeting. I'm pretty shaky. I know I stink because the alcohol is just oozing out my body. The people in AA were kind. I can't talk much, I cry alot but I am so damn done that anything I didn't do right today, I'll just have to work on tomorrow.