Glad to hear you sticking with us. Just keep asking yourself "Am I willing to do anything to stay sober?" I know when I was an active alcoholic, I would do anything to get my alcohol. If I didn't feel well, or it was snowing outside, I would trudge through hell and fire to get my fix. Now are you willing to do the same thing to stay sober? I hope you are. Just remember, you are not doing this alone... we are here and your higher power is here too if you seek him out.
God bless and let's talk tomorrow...you can do this one day at a time.