I really urge you to see a doctor about this. You are messing with the chemical ballance in your brain. If you are embarassed to see your personal doctor, find a new one, preferably with an addiction speciality, and be straight with him about everything. Going on and off of SSRI's can cause big withdrawals also. Please talk to a doctor. If you are in school, go to the med ceter, but it's important to have someone who knows what they are doing to help you.