i don't know why i can't stop. it's all consuming.
i was doing so well for the first time. i had almost 60 days. i don't want to believe that relapses are inevitable
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scary isnt it......i didnt want to drink.......and yet..
i got a lot of vital imformation from the doctors opinion in the bb.
i believe i needed that imformation...firstly.
before i read it i believed i was different.....mine cant be alcoholism because when i stop drinking.......the problem continues or gets worse...the mental torture contined........the last debacle became a distant memory and i drank again.
Then the rest of the book gives me the other vital imformation..the solution.. in the form of twelve steps.....
beginning with the words admit im powerless......
powerless me...never....
but didnt i just take a drink even though i didnt want to....didnt i say never again ever ever ever and it was as effective as pis@ing in the wind!!
read the docs opinion........you may just be faced with yourself...i was.