Thanks for the words.
Wow: the "not fighting" thing hit me. I'm nowhere close to that. It was a struggle, and my mind and thoughts were spinning and bouncing off of each other. But about this trip.
I'm going to visit friends and family, like I said. I should also say, I live 300 miles from my partner, and I get to see her maybe once a month if I'm lucky. We've been married for 8 years. I moved for a job, we both thought it was a good decision...
Anyway. I say the above because I can't not go. I know I have a choice for everything, but man. I gotta see her. I really miss her, and a week with her is too much to give up right now.
I guess, long story short:
- I'm still fighting-- I am not a zen-master recovery person yet (I guess in AA, this is "dry drunk")
- When presented with temptation, my "tools" are fuzzy but not in my forefront
- I will be telling my friends and family I am visiting I won't be drinking
- You all are really making this for me. Thank you so, so much for caring for a complete stranger.