Hi Suzanne, and welcome..
I am sorry for your loss....
You have surely had your plate full...and I agree, God does move in mysterious ways
...in my recovery, I was supported literally every step of the way and
my faith deepened in a very profound way...
Congratulations on 19 years of sobriety!
I am glad you have found us; SR is a blessed place for us all...
Good for you for staying strong in your recovery when things were their toughest