Suzanne, that is fabulous - 19 yrs., even after all you've been through! You are so right - drinking doesn't give us the shelter we're seeking when times are tough. It only masks our true feelings & just makes things harder to cope with in the long run. I wish it hadn't taken me so long to realize that.
This is a wonderful place filled with some of the best people I've met in my life. I've become wiser and happier in the 2+ years I've checked in here every day. I hope you find it to be helpful and enjoyable too. We're looking forward to hearing more about you.