Good luck, lostmyway. Remember that you only have to not drink for 24 hours at a time. Not for the rest of your life. Not for the holidays. You only have to not drink today. Part of this time you will be sleeping, eating, playing with your children, etc.
You can do it for 24 hours. Good luck and God bless you for realizing that you need help.
You deserve it. John in Oklahoma