Hi Artifical
I quit cos I'd had enough - but I'd had enough before, and I always went back.
The difference this time was support - I needed somewhere to go, and people to be accountable to - to reach out, not feel alone, and to help other people a bit too.
Whether you do that here, or go to NA or a counsellor or a rehab programme - do some thing different, Artifical. Get some support
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