Hi Kjell,
I agree, sometimes, living sober sucks - but living drunk sucks more.
Don't expect that you will feel "normal" right away. It takes time for your brain (the organ) to get accustomed to physiologically function without alcohol. Eat well, drink plenty of water, write here on SR and read. Your mind and emotions will soon follow. Stick with your plan of going to meetings. I echo what others say about exercise.
It took me close to one full year before my brain, body and mind began to work together in sober unison. That first year sure sucked and some days still suck. But my chances of leading a happier and healthier life are far better sober than if I was trying to do it drunk.
I wish the best for you. Please keep us updated.