You know in reading what DesertKate & GotItFirstTime have said I would simply ask a question for you to ponder upon. When you look your daughter in the eye today do you ever feel a need to escape from the reality of your life away from her? From your initial post on this thread I sense a great deal of regret in your chosen profession and self justify it by saying it allows you to spend a great deal of time with your daughter. Is the time you spend with her quality time?