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Old 11-24-2009, 05:13 AM
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DesertKate
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Join Date: Nov 2009
Location: Arizona
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You said: "As great as it is, escorting also leads me into drinking. "

The fact that alcohol is present in your "work environment", as it is for so many of us in the business world, is certainly one issue. But one you've not acknowledged in your lengthy post is a far more serious one: selling your body to strangers would seem to REQUIRE some level of anesthetization in order to do it day after day, night after night.

Over the last thirty years in AA, I've known several women who were prostitutes at one time, also, and each eventually were honest with others in the program about what they did. It's an honest program, as we say, and no one is going to kick you out or look down upon you for honesty. But neither will anyone with any real sobriety, such as a sponsor, enable behavior that is spiritually, emotionally or physically self destructive in such an extreme way.

A very high percentage of women alcoholics were victims of childhood sexual abuse and, as you might be aware, upwards of 80% of female prostitutes were also. And, of course, a very high percentage of prostitutes are alcoholics or addicts.

If you do ultimately commit yourself to getting sober, getting well, I do not believe you will be able to continue what you are doing for long. Reading between the lines of your post, I sense you know this and are afraid and unwilling to deal with it. It is entirely your choice, of course, as it is for each of us. But sobriety is a prize so far above anything else life can offer us, that you may be surprised by how much you are ultimately willing to change. Believe me, I made changes in my life and relationships that I never anticipated and never thought I could undertake. But I did and so do millions of others. The alternative to sobriety, especially for you, sounds pretty dismal in the long run. I hope you choose life and that that life surprises the heck out of you with how wonderful and fulfilling it turns out to be.

Good luck.
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