Hi LTT
With respect, I don't think the problem is SR...
I've read your posts and blogs...you've been battling with these feelings for a while. Sounds to me like you're lonely, maybe a bit sad...that's never a good place to be for an alcoholic.
It's up to us to do something about it, LTT. We deal with these feelings in a healthy way - or they deal with us. Thats the bottom line really.
In my experience, white knuckling doesn't really cut it - not as a long term solution.
What are you doing about it LTT?
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