A conspiracy of love...
Where's the secret room?
I'm so sick that I thought, well, if I go out and drink, and they kick me off SR, then I'll have proven what a hopeless case I am, but it didn't work. So, then I'm thinking, what's up with these people, they must've met in a secret online room and decided to love me regardless, and to keep loving me regardless, it's some kind of conspiracy, lol.
In all seriousness, it's just blows my mind that all of you are still here, still willing to listen and try to help a drunk like me. I can't stop thinking about it. Where does that kind of love come from? Even tough love is still love, so I can't help but wonder how you all do it? If I had just 1% of the love I've found here, I'd be blessed beyond measure. Think I'll stick around to see if I can learn how to feel love myself. It's gotta beat what I've been feeling lately.
My heart is torn up over this. It amazes me.