This is where your journey begins. You have realized that you need to focus on yourself.
While I was living with an active alcoholic, I was always focusing on him and his actions. I was always trying to anticipate and head off the next binge. I finally realized that I was not responsible for him and his actions. The only thing I can control is myself.
I did not like what I had become. I had to learn to respect myself and learn to love myself. My journey began here at SR and it includes Al-anon meetings and self-help books.
Have you started attending Alanon meetings yet?
Do something tonight for yourself like a bubble bath and/or polish your toenails.
(((C2P)))