Wow. I dont have alot to say. Because I dont have any experience in recreational use.
That ball wouldnt stand a chance ion my hands. It would be gone in hours and I would be trying to get more and not stop until I either passed out form being awake for days or couldnt get anymore up my nose. But the addict in me would still find a way to get it up there.
If you feel you have a rpoblem and that this is affecting your life and health in a bad way. Then I think you should seek some kind of help. I cant make that call to what kind of help you get.
But doing even a little bit of drugs is bad.
I am sure more people will be along to help more.
Welcome.