HI Jenny,
you and I have the same clean date! I binged like a mofo on Oct 25 and that was bottom for me.
I've been in a recovery program...now I am living a recovery program. No more of that for me, ever.
Being here, and working like mad...I've uncovered some of the last places I was hanging on to my old life and ways.
Stick around, be open to what you read, even if it makes everything inside you cringe.
get involved on the boards.
and lets live sober