Originally Posted by
jazzz 
The hard part is to make it a real part of you to believe in a higer power and act accordingly. And of course to admit to yourself that you're reeeally an alcoholic.
Some people make their higher power GOD. For example G-O-D, or group-of-drunks. Don't let the higher power part trip you up. I belong to AA and I love it. It changed my life drastically! I could say that it is the best thing that ever happened to me.
We all wonder if we are alcoholic and if we can drink moderately again. I haven't drank in almost seven months and I still wonder if I can handle it one more time. In all honesty, only alcoholics would still be thinking about alcohol after not having any for several months.
Hang in there you are doing great. Don't let the pot make you think you can drink.