I've not driven drunk, ever... never would.
And the times I've really tried hard (yes putting a lot of energy in), I have been successful. But its that I don't always try.
But anyway, just so that last part of my post isn't misconstrued...
I have a problem with drinking, I get that.... all I meant was thats not what I'm trying to solve right now... Im trying to work out how to fix things with my friend.