5 days in and blew it..
I almost was able to fight off the urge, but ended up drinking last night. Part of me was feeling relief, like, "I'm back" but the bigger part is disgust with myself. Woke up in the middle of the night with the usual ache I get after drinking, just the shame. Plus the headache and heartburn that drinking straight vodka gives you. Or me..
I still want to use that 5 days as leverage, though. This was just a slip up, right? This does not mean I have to go back to drinking--because I don't want to do that. I can't.
I went into the closet this morning, to look at the bottle and see exactly how much I consumed last night. It seems I did not secure the bottle properly, and the rest of the booze spilled into carpet in the closet! I am taking this as a sign--the rug needs it, I DON'T!